I am not okay. I'm not going to pretend otherwise.

When the first news alert about Roe v. Wade being overturned hit my inbox, I felt it in my gut. I spent the next few hours alternating between sobbing, screaming into a pillow, and raging with the women in my life. None of us are okay.

I'm not going to be okay for a long time.

I expended so much emotion that day I exhausted myself. I settled into a state of numbness that has not left me.

I want to flip tables. I want to scream. I want to go running through the streets demanding that others join me in righting this wrong. I want to squeeze my daughter in a hug so close that nothing can hurt her. I want to crawl into a ball under the covers on my bed and never come out.

Most of all, I want to know why being a woman means you're not a full, autonomous human in this country. 

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I read Mr. Wrong Number in four nights so I’m back to reading Champagne. I like that the tradition of protest began early in France. I did not know that there was massive debate about which regions of France could be called Champagne. That debate led to people sending thousands of gallons of wine into the Marne river. History is fascinating.

• How to manage work overload. [HBR - may be paywalled]

• Find the productivity system which works for you. [Evernote]

• We need more consequences for bad actions. [All In Her Head]

• The myth of effortlessness. [In Pursuit of Clean Countertops]

• I'm going to have to try this in my teaching. [Faculty Focus]

• Visiting a museum can help you feel better. [Hyperallergic]

• I did not know that this was the process for making tempeh. [Later On - reader submission]

• Dogs: Always amazing. [Short Wave]

• The humble checklist is a powerful tool. [Hidden Brain]

• Dreaming of dinosaurs. [Short Wave]

• The summary for Triple Frontier basically only listed the two lead actors. There was no other info. But, I like both Ben Affleck and Oscar Isaac, so we went with it. The movie was fine. It was a heist flick that turned into a story about man vs. man and man vs. self.  [Netflix]

• We finally got around to seeing Knives Out and now we know what all the hype is about. I knew this was a murder mystery with a stellar cast but that was about it. I did not know that James Bond put on a southern accent. This movie has clever editing which adds some oomph to the story. The plot is convoluted but it's also not designed to be overly tricky. Definitely recommend. [Amazon Prime]

• For our current weekday series, we've started the Flux arc of Doctor Who. The first episodes of this arc are a lot of set up. There's tons of callback to Doctor Who lore. Don't blink. I'm intrigued by the new main monster (and the look of said monster is incredible). It will be interesting to see how this comes together because there are lot of strings of plot and character being pulled. [HBO Max]

• Clicked on this because I had to know what duck frosting was. [Lifehacker]

• After a weekend full of eating out, we wanted some lighter (but still filling) fare on our menu. I made shrimp with white beans, spinach, and tomatoes. The recipe calls for two cans of beans and I only used one. It was still plenty. I always use the entire bag of spinach because it shrinks down to nothing. We both wanted to eat this with a crusty bread, so we are making a note of that for next time. [The Kitchn]

• I've been trying to rotate some new sheet pan meals into our menu because they are easy. This week, I made baked sausages with apples. It's similar to another sheet pan dish we love that uses sweet potato. This one uses white potatoes, adds carrots, and includes a honey glaze. That makes it just different enough I didn't want to be eating the other dish. [Jo Cooks]

My brother is doing the digital nomad thing and documents some of his travels on Instagram. Right now, he’s over on the West Coast. I wish I could be in this spot watching the waves crash against the rocks.

I know I shared this recently, but it feels important to share it again.

ineedana.com shows people the closest and vetted clinics that perform abortions. In addition to finding a clinic, you can also volunteer to help review clinic data.

As is becoming the mantra of many, I will aid and abet abortion because abortion is healthcare.

Just this for a very long time.