"I Never Felt Comfortable in My Own Skin So I Made a New One" by Xan Phillips

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July 14, 2022 

I Never Felt Comfortable in My Own Skin So I Made a New One

Xan Phillips

I was on a walk when I was struck by the precarity of the gender that wore me,
which moved my matter, wrote books, and fell in love. as a child, I scoured 

the forest for brittle cicada skins abandoned on trees. husks present differently now
a pair of nylons caught in the thicket, a beak surviving its decomposing bird, 

a mural of George Floyd with a purple cock spray-painted on his beryl cheek.
among these discreet mutilations, I pull a line of thought through flesh 

where a misled margin slept. I was uninhabitable before I snared a man
for his hide. I was not unlike the skin of a drum thriving under a stamina 

that made music of me before I split. you wouldn’t recognize me now
if you saw me in the trees, played out, scattered to the undergrowth. I took a life 

and returned it to scale and membrane. I foraged a life coated in plastic
and mud from the highway overpass. it reeked of wheatpiss and it was mine.

Copyright © 2022 by Xan Phillips. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on July 14, 2022, by the Academy of American Poets.

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“I was listening to the Watchmen soundtrack when a line struck me like it never had before: ‘I never felt comfortable in my own skin so I made a new one.’ During the first few months of my medical transition, I was in constant wonder at my own skin thickening, insulating me more from the cold, and drawing me out onto long walks across the city. On these solitary walks, I had no one to commune with but the detritus and foreboding infrastructures I encountered.”
Xan Phillips

Xan Phillips is the author Hull (Nightboat Books, 2019), winner of the Lambda Literary Award for Transgender Poetry. The recipient of awards and fellowships from the Whiting Foundation, the Wisconsin Institute for Creative Writing, and the Center for the Study of Race and Ethnicity at Brown University, he is currently a fellow at the Center for African American Poetry and Poetics (CAAPP) at the University of Pittsburgh.
Hull
(Nightboat Books, 2019)


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