Poem-a-Day - "The Economy" by Ariana Reines

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December 21, 2023 

The Economy

Ariana Reines
for Terry Tempest Williams

I didn’t love

That I had this

Tendency

Toward melody

Or the appetite for drama

Always obvious

In my thinking

& in everything

I did. I wasn’t TV

Though I watched myself

Sometimes passively

As though brained or

Bludgeoned out of the fullness

Of my own reality. I felt

I had to respect what seduced me

Even if stupidly—even when it made

Me stupid—or meant I was—

Making of my mind a begging bowl

Laying myself waste for the devil

Making an innocent victim of the child within

So ferociously did I fear

Something adult, like sovereignty

Survival was a big-

Box-store-bought

Blanket. Not wet

But scented

With the antiseptics

Of the factory

It would take days

To air out, get it to resemble

The picture of something homey

And grandmother-made

I know what it’s like to pay

Money for such.

The three-dimensional

Image of things. To find

Them feeling hollow and smelling

Wrong. I know what it’s like.

The imitation of life.

I almost know what it means.

I disciplined my own form and the thinking

Within me. That may not be a religion

But it is grim theology.

The more muscle I had the better

I felt I could contain and conduct

The sorrow within. The smoother

Ran my blood and lymph.

My body dismayed me and I hated,

Adored it. Recurrent dreams

Of defective dolls kept coming back

To warn me. You are not a thing.

You are not the object against which forces

Tilt that you cannot control.

You are the entire subject of the world.

Tears rolled down a cheek of stone

My friend Terry writes about water

And land, mother and brother

Like a singer. I once despaired

To her that the only endangered

Species I had managed to speak

On behalf of up to that moment

Was myself. This seemed squalid

And narrow to me. Terry said it was real

Territory. I blinked melancholy

Into the seething night

Like a spotted owl in the eye

Of a security camera

Black and white bird without

Offspring or prey. My body

Is filled with plastic

I left my mother to die

To write these lines

You will parry that such is a false

Economy. But so

Are all the other ones we live by

Copyright © 2023 by Ariana Reines. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on December 21, 2023, by the Academy of American Poets. 

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“This was the first real poem I was able to write after my mother’s suicide last year. I was staying in an AirBnB in the small city where I’d spent the pandemic. There was something  comforting about the familiarity of the place, but also store-bought—fake—about that comfort. And yet, something inside me unlocked there, so the ersatz comfort I was able to purchase for myself was ‘worth it.’ My friend, the writer Terry Tempest Williams, had recently published a gorgeous essay about the Great Salt Lake. Reading Terry’s words, I realized that, in my solitude, I had come to feel almost like a bird flying over the parched and harrowed lands of my own soul and body. I saw how hard it had become for me to trust anyone with my pain, or to believe in the possibility of healing. You have to pay a lot—a lot, and in so many ways—to take part in this world. And yet it’s your living and your love that is this world’s real wealth.”
—Ariana Reines

Ariana Reines
Ariana Reines is a Jewish American poet and the author, among many other titles, of A Sand Book (Tin House, 2019), winner of the 2020 Kingsley Tufts Poetry Award. The recipient of a MacDowell Fellowship and the Brown Foundation Fellowship at Dora Maar House, she lives in New York.

A Sand Book
(Tin House, 2019)

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